Hey, Where Are You Going?Fr. Barnabas Powell
I want to go with you!
My daughters love to go places with daddy. It doesn’t really matter where I’m going; they just like to tag along. And that makes sense. After all, daddies buy candy!
There’s something comforting about being with Another Who is stronger than you and seems to know where He is going. There is something comforting in the surety, in the confidence that that sure direction brings. It seems safe, wise, and full of purpose.
But, it also presupposes a level of love, trust, and knowledge that requires something more than just being motivated by fear or insecurity. Because either of these motives always runs out of gas before the destination has been achieved. It’s like when my girls realize that there will be no candy this trip or that we’re going to someplace where daddy is going to have to be busy with a particular task that the childish (rather than childlike) immaturity gets the best of them and then here come the complaints, the tears, and the begging “But daddy, I don’t want to sit still. Please get me….”
In today’s Gospel Lesson the Lord Jesus is continuing His high priestly prayer in John 17:18-26. The Lord is about to face the Cross. He is going to be crucified. He is going to be buried. He is going to rise from the dead. He is going to ascend into heaven. But the disciples only see a mere glimpse of this plan and they are going to hit the wall of insecurity and fear and they are going to scatter instead of follow.
They are not ready to enter into the Lord’s greatest desire for them to “become perfectly one, so that the world may know that you have sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me. Father, I desire that they also, whom you have given me, may be with me where I am, to behold my glory which you have given me in your love for me before the foundation of the world.” John 17:23-24
If we are ever going to be one as the Lord prayed; if we are ever going to be where He is and see Him in His glory, we are going to have to make that life-long journey based on building up our trust, confidence, and love for Christ that motivates us to stick with the journey even in the face of difficult moments. In fact, these very difficult moments become for us treasures of insight into our own places of immaturity and fear. These moments of temptation to give up or go back or just sit still and do nothing invite us to know ourselves and see those places where childishness has overcome a child-like faith and confidence.
Today, are you self-aware enough to realize that bumps in the road of your following Christ are wonderful moments of self knowledge that will help you in the future? Do you have a good relationship with a spiritual father that can help you diagnose those moments in your life so you can learn from them? When was the last time you went to confession and allowed the wisdom of the timeless faith to assist you in staying on the path?
Today is the Leave-taking (Apodosis) of the Feast of the Ascension. We were made to follow the Lord Jesus into heaven and be with Him in His glory. This path is clearly laid out. The Way is made plain. We stand at the threshold of the Feast of Pentecost where all the power we will ever need to stay on the path will be given to us. So, what do you say? Do you want to go?